I am not my husband but I can tell you why he would not consider the sex and times I offered> He felt that i was using sex as a blackmail to get him to wait on things he did not want to wait for in the community. He said we were trying to Ransom his life and he was not paying the ransom when The sex did happen it was in no way the way i wanted in 2013> He had just come home from three years of rehab after MRSA in his spine and its complications. Had been in a stress center for two weeks. because of an incident that happened in the Rebab in 2012 when his father told him he again thought he was going to have his way when what he was really going to do was shut his face and just accept what was decided for him and that did not include a vacation ever, He flattened his father with a stainless steel bed pan to his face and he threw a full urinal at me telling me i had nothing ever to say about holidays and vacations. HE was done and would kill the first person that got in the way of his rights when he was out of rehab. When He got out of the stress center it was on the worst possible evening, I was getting ready to go to an Awards dinner as a promise to his mother, father, and his fathers best friend. I started out of my room and ran right into his chest and His first comment home was good i was ready to go out, He had not been out in 31 years. Where were we going!. He Knew full well we did not expect him home that day. I broke down Crying telling him I had promised that evening six months before and I could not add him to the table at that late hour. He just said well it looked like His parents and his fathers friend may as well get used to broken promises just as he had the last 31 year. Back off this or that and i promised him we would have the sex life and vacation as well as the holidays he earned and wanted and then when i came time to keep my promise where did he end up again. Filling for someone else taking his time and I would make the same stupid promise again expecting him to fall for it. He said Now the Bill was due and I was keeping 31 years of promises to him before I even thought was keeping any to any one else.. I was trying to hand him a 100 and get him to meet us anywhere he choose after the event. I just wanted a Civil discourse why things had happened as they had> He was not going to permit it and ripped my outfit to shreds and had his way about sex. Then he went after his fathers friend when he arrived and called my husband a crip and told him to get out of his way he was entering our home< He Through the man over the rail on our deck landing him face first in the Drive right in front of his fathers car. We think he was intending the man land in his mother and fathers lap. Over the years for everytime he w3as interfered with from @001 to 2009 he made sure somebody hurt over it even if he had to ambush some body. I Never understood why when his father and others used weapons to force him to work the holidays, Or when His father put his passport in his safe deposit to make him stay and work vacations Why he could not just Do as was requested and Take the times offered in exchange Instead of wait until the incident was finished and he worked then he would show up with a machinist sledge and break parts of people for daring to hold a weapon on him. I saw what he did to one man who thought drawing a pistol when he appeared at his home was going to stop his pain, My husband shattered the right hand, his arm up to the shoulder bad enough he lost his arm, all because he had wanted a holiday off and they forced him in at shotgun point. IN 2014 On Memorial day his father offered him 200 to stay away until we called him home. Before the end of the day he's taking a reservation my name was on away from another friend and telling his father he did not care if he was invited where I was invited he was to His father slapped him and called him stupid, His father flew over the kitchen island with the full force of a full fisted backhand breaking his jaw. He Had To be stopped from making the doorman at the club from getting his face ground into the pavement after pushing him to a public sidewalk and into the street. On the fourth of July that year they used Ketamine in a drink he had and Dumped him 30 miles out of Tow intending tio go back and get him later, HE Did Nor wait to embarrass everyone sending state police in To Search for the drug after they pumped his stomach. Two Friends were arrested in front of their families wives and children. They called it a joke, The police called it abduction with intent to do bodily harm and not a joke dumping a man in the middle of a county road and leaving him there drugged not with his consent. If My husband would have just talked to us then those men would be home with their kids instead of paying in prison for a joke. IN 2015 We were going on a cruise to Cancun My Husband Did Not care he was again not invited withy his rule if i was then he was.. It Made his father so angry he intended to use a ball bat to send him back home and stop hi9s defiance. His Father was hit so hard with an Upper cut before he took his swing it broke his neck. Latter in 2015I was offering the First Christmas dinner as a married man in 33 years, at home, To keep tensions down I gave him his plate and told him to go out to the barn and eat out there and if he wanted more I would get it at the back door He hit me in the face with the full plate yelling at me he was not some dam hand to e given charity. It Was his table , the food he had supplied and he was not eating in the cold barn.. He made everyone leave under the barrel of a 30 30 and I just stood and cried thinking why did it always have to be so hard to gain just a little cooperation. IF just one year we could have gone without defiance about sex, his work, and time out of the plant I think something that he wanted could have been worked out. I know after we ran into the problems within two years of his return home about vacation time, We had come back from ROME with a plan to Find A vacation starting after the New Year in 1988. I was thinking a nice beach and hotel for the same two weeks off in time it was just six months away. He Wanted me to keep the two promises i had made the last two years About sex And The mos5rt recent was any time, any where and any way he wanted, I Would Be both a Willing sex partner and travel companion if he stayed behind for that girl and her lazy fiancé to marry in ROME. I was not expecting him to want to drop everyone else at his fathers house and want to point the nose of the Van to Wyoming and His Grandfathers where he was from 1239 miles to the west. He had been hounded to go out there with me to introduce me. I just did not want a three week road trip after traveling all night from Rome, Every suggestion we mad for six months away was shot down. He Said did we realize he had not even seen the3 sun in seven years, What would he look like on a beach, probably a lobster. He got in the sun the first time In 2014 and he burned within five minutes so bad he blistered. I had no idea years ago when he left the Boats that sun was now a allergy for him.

I really hate to hear that it is cancelled. It was a favorite. I also think its the networks fault because they kept changing nights and times and people got tired of trying to figure out when it was on. Evidently the network didn't like it but I thought with all the trouble we had keeping track of it there were lots of loyal fans. Guess we don't count. Lois

Well, this has been unanswered for a while, so I thought I'd give it a shot. First, I'd do a Google search. If that doesn't yield anything, which I am sure it will, you can post your question at the link provided below. It is an open-to-the public forum that revolves around fragrances but someone there will be able to help you. Susan Here is a link that might be useful: The Scent Review

John Buchan Quotes Scottish - Politician August 26, 1875 - February 11, 1940 The charm of fishing is that it is the pursuit of what is elusive but attainable, a perpetual series of occasions for hope. John Buchan Prayer opens the heart to God, and it is the means by which the soul, though empty, is filled by God. John Buchan Every man at the bottom of his heart believes that he is a born detective. John Buchan You think that a wall as solid as the earth separates civilization from barbarism. I tell you the division is a thread, a sheet of glass. A touch here, a push there, and you bring back the reign of Saturn. John Buchan The task of leadership is not to put greatness into humanity, but to elicit it, for the greatness is already there. John Buchan We can pay our debts to the past by putting the future in debt to ourselves. John Buchan Civilization is a conspiracy. Modern life is the silent compact of comfortable folk to keep up pretences. John Buchan To live for a time close to great minds is the best kind of education. John Buchan He disliked emotion, not because he felt lightly, but because he felt deeply. John Buchan The true definition of a snob is one who craves for what separates men rather than for what unites them. John Buchan There may be Peace without Joy, and Joy without Peace, but the two combined make Happiness. John Buchan Peace is that state in which fear of any kind is unknown. John Buchan Without humility there can be no humanity. John Buchan The robe of flesh wears thin, and with the years God shines through all things. John Buchan The best prayers have often more groans than words. John Buchan Guillaume Apollinaire Quotes French - Novelist August 26, 1880 - November 9, 1918 Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy. Guillaume Apollinaire It's raining my soul, it's raining, but it's raining dead eyes. Guillaume Apollinaire I love men, not for what unites them, but for what divides them, and I want to know most of all what gnaws at their hearts. Guillaume Apollinaire The plastic virtues: purity, unity, and truth, keep nature in subjection. Guillaume Apollinaire Joy always came after pain. Guillaume Apollinaire Without poets, without artists, men would soon weary of nature's monotony. Guillaume Apollinaire A structure becomes architectural, and not sculptural, when its elements no longer have their justification in nature. Guillaume Apollinaire Artists are, above all, men who want to become inhuman. Guillaume Apollinaire I hate artists who are not of their time. Guillaume Apollinaire When man wanted to make a machine that would walk he created the wheel, which does not resemble a leg. Guillaume Apollinaire One can't carry one's father's corpse about everywhere. Guillaume Apollinaire Christopher Isherwood Quotes American - Author August 26, 1904 - January 4, 1986 Life is not so bad if you have plenty of luck, a good physique, and not too much imagination. Christopher Isherwood What irritates me is the bland way people go around saying, 'Oh, our attitude has changed. We don't dislike these people any more.' But by the strangest coincidence, they haven't taken away the injustice; the laws are still on the books. Christopher Isherwood I am a camera with its shutter open, quite passive, recording, not thinking. Christopher Isherwood I'll bet Shakespeare compromised himself a lot; anybody who's in the entertainment industry does to some extent. Christopher Isherwood California is a tragic country - like Palestine, like every Promised Land. Christopher Isherwood One should never write down or up to people, but out of yourself. Christopher Isherwood Katherine Johnson Quotes American - Physicist Born: August 26, 1918 We will always have STEM with us. Some things will drop out of the public eye and will go away, but there will always be science, engineering, and technology. And there will always, always be mathematics. Katherine Johnson I like to learn. That's an art and a science. Katherine Johnson I don't have a feeling of inferiority. Never had. I'm as good as anybody, but no better. Katherine Johnson Take all the courses in your curriculum. Do the research. Ask questions. Find someone doing what you are interested in! Be curious! Katherine Johnson I'm always interested in learning something new. Katherine Johnson Girls are capable of doing everything men are capable of doing. Sometimes they have more imagination than men. Katherine Johnson In math, you're either right or you're wrong. Katherine Johnson I counted everything. I counted the steps to the road, the steps up to church, the number of dishes and silverware I washed... anything that could be counted, I did. Katherine Johnson Go see 'Hidden Figures,' and take a young person! It will give a more positive outlook on what is possible if you work hard, do your best, and are prepared. Katherine Johnson Many professors tell you that you'd be good at this or that, but they don't always help you with that career path. Katherine Johnson I see a picture right now that's not parallel, so I'm going to go straighten it. Things must be in order. Katherine Johnson Everything is physics and math. Katherine Johnson I found what I was looking for at Langley. This was what a research mathematician did. I went to work every day for 33 years happy. Never did I get up and say I don't want to go to work. Katherine Johnson Men don't pay attention to small things. Katherine Johnson John Glenn's life will long be remembered for his time in space, his courage, and his service to all Americans. Katherine Johnson I felt most proud on the success of the Apollo mission. Katherine Johnson I liked working with smart people. Katherine Johnson Barbara Ehrenreich Quotes American - Writer Born: August 26, 1941 I know that the last thing a book wants is to just sit around unread, serving as an element of interior decorating. So when I have people over, all they have to do is glance at my books, and I implore them to take a few home with them. If I am really ambitious, I pack books into boxes and donate them to prisons. Barbara Ehrenreich At best the family teaches the finest things human beings can learn from one another generosity and love. But it is also, all too often, where we learn nasty things like hate, rage and shame. Barbara Ehrenreich I haven't read enough of the Bible. You know, I'm saving the Bible for if I ever get imprisoned, and the only reading material was the Bible. Barbara Ehrenreich I would never call myself a cancer survivor because I think it devalues those who do not survive. There's this whole mythology that people bravely battle their cancer and then they become survivors. Well, the ones who don't survive may be just as brave, you know, just as courageous, wonderful people. Barbara Ehrenreich The Civil Rights Movement, it wasn't just a couple of, you know, superstars like Martin Luther King. It was thousands and thousands - millions, I should say - of people taking risks, becoming leaders in their community. Barbara Ehrenreich I'm not questioning the monotheistic god. I think there's absolutely no evidence for the existence of such a god. When I say that, I mean I'm - part of that is that the idea that God could be all-powerful and also benevolent is on its face contradictory. Barbara Ehrenreich I've spent so many years talking about poverty and economic justice, I'm strongly tempted to get biblical. Jesus' teachings are so radical; they're just insanely generous and apocalyptic. Christians become more fascinated by the dead Jesus. They don't like the living Jesus. Barbara Ehrenreich America is addicted to wars of distraction. Barbara Ehrenreich Employers have gone away from the idea that an employee is a long-term asset to the company, someone to be nurtured and developed, to a new notion that they are disposable. Barbara Ehrenreich My death is incidental, and I worry very much about my loved ones and, you know, would like to make it as easy as possible for them. Or wish I could will away whatever, you know, the sadness they will feel when I die. But for me, nothing. The world goes on. Barbara Ehrenreich A research group found that 56 percent of major companies surveyed in the late '80s agreed that 'employees who are loyal to the company and further its business goals deserve an assurance of continued employment.' A decade later, only 6 percent agreed. It was in the '90s that companies started weeding people out as a form of cost reduction. Barbara Ehrenreich If there is something I am arguing, it is a critique of science. Science has consistently denied the existence of consciousness other than human. Only in the last 20 years do we have acknowledgement of animal feeling or culture or experience. Barbara Ehrenreich Of all the nasty outcomes predicted for women's liberation... none was more alarming, from a feminist point of view, than the suggestion that women would eventually become just like men. Barbara Ehrenreich The one regret I have about my own abortions is that they cost money that might otherwise have been spent on something more pleasurable, like taking the kids to movies and theme parks. Barbara Ehrenreich Natural selection, as it has operated in human history, favors not only the clever but the murderous. Barbara Ehrenreich Exercise is the yuppie version of bulimia. Barbara Ehrenreich That's free enterprise, friends: freedom to gamble, freedom to lose. And the great thing - the truly democratic thing about it - is that you don't even have to be a player to lose. Barbara Ehrenreich No matter that patriotism is too often the refuge of scoundrels. Dissent, rebellion, and all-around hell-raising remain the true duty of patriots. Barbara Ehrenreich We who officially value freedom of speech above life itself seem to have nothing to talk about but the weather. Barbara Ehrenreich Personally, I can't see why it would be any less romantic to find a husband in a nice four-color catalogue than in the average downtown bar at happy hour. Barbara Ehrenreich There is the fear, common to all English-only speakers, that the chief purpose of foreign languages is to make fun of us. Otherwise, you know, why not just come out and say it? Barbara Ehrenreich Personally, I have nothing against work, particularly when performed, quietly and unobtrusively, by someone else. I just don't happen to think it's an appropriate subject for an 'ethic.' 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They saw through that adage, repeated to me so often in childhood, that anything worth doing is worth doing well. Barbara Ehrenreich Life, Childhood, Believe Take motherhood: nobody ever thought of putting it on a moral pedestal until some brash feminists pointed out, about a century ago, that the pay is lousy and the career ladder nonexistent. Barbara Ehrenreich Individually the poor are not too tempting to thieves, for obvious reasons. Mug a banker and you might score a wallet containing a month's rent. Mug a janitor and you will be lucky to get away with bus fare to flee the crime scene. Barbara Ehrenreich Lenders, including major credit companies as well as payday lenders, have taken over the traditional role of the street-corner loan shark, charging the poor insanely high rates of interest. Barbara Ehrenreich Poor, Credit, Loan No one should be incarcerated for debt or squeezed for money they have no chance of getting their hands on. Barbara Ehrenreich Money, Chance, Hands As anyone knows who has ever had to set up a military encampment or build a village from the ground up, occupations pose staggering logistical problems. Barbara Ehrenreich The internet was supposed to make this whole business of job searching rational and simple. You could post your resume and companies would search them and they'd find you. It doesn't seem to work that way. There aren't enough jobs for experienced, college educated managers and professionals. Barbara Ehrenreich There's more pressure on women to be chirpy and perky. Barbara Ehrenreich Well I do think there are people who are habitually negative and depressed and take the opposite approach because they imagine the worst, and their minds become dominated by that. They let their own emotions and expectations transform their perceptions of the world. Barbara Ehrenreich So even though I consider myself a fairly upbeat person, energetic and things like that, I never do very well on happiness tests. Barbara Ehrenreich If you can attribute your success entirely to your own mental effort, to your own attitude, to some spiritual essence that you have that is better than other people's, then that must feel pretty good. Barbara Ehrenreich Well, the first thing that clued me in to the fact that there was something really scary about breast cancer, way beyond the thought of dying, was coming across an ad in the newspaper for pink breast cancer teddy bears. I am not that afraid of dying, but I am terrified of dying with a pink teddy bear under my arm. Barbara Ehrenreich It was a real surprise to me to come across the evidence that Christianity might once have been a danced religion. Certainly, some of the early church leaders thought this was great and spoke of what seems to have been circle dancing, perhaps around an altar. Barbara Ehrenreich Whenever people can access deities directly without the intervention of a religious hierarchy, they don't need to have hierarchy so much. Barbara Ehrenreich Yes, I think especially the Pentecostal churches, you know, that there's been such a growth in Pentecostalism. And it's a rejection of the much more dour and barren kind of Calvinist worship and also, the very formal Catholic forms of worship. Barbara Ehrenreich I think it's tragic that we have this human capacity, which appears to be hardwired, or so the evolutionary biologists say, for collective joy. We have these techniques for generating it that go back thousands of years, and yet we tend not to use this. Barbara Ehrenreich Well, I certainly wouldn't want to live in the 18th century myself, or the 19th either, for that matter. Barbara Ehrenreich Yes. I think the anti-Wal-Mart is Costco, which pays much better and has much better health benefits and which is profitable and offers low prices. Barbara Ehrenreich Medical debts are the number-one cause of bankruptcy in America. Barbara Ehrenreich For a long time on Earth humans didn't worship good gods; that's a new idea. The ancient Greek gods, the Hindu gods, are fairly amoral, most of them. We get stuck when we insist that God be both good and all-powerful. Barbara Ehrenreich I have a Ph.D. in cell biology. And that's really manual labor. I mean, experimental science, you do it with your hands. So it's very different. You're out there in a lab, cleaning test tubes, and it just wasn't that fascinating. Barbara Ehrenreich Experimental science is fascinating, but I don't want to do it. I want other people to do it, and I'll read about it. Barbara Ehrenreich People tend to judge presidents on how the economy performs, and yet we don't expect them to have the power to do much about it. Or we don't want them to exercise that power, if they were to have it. Barbara Ehrenreich When I was born, my father was a copper miner in Butte, Montana. It was a hard-core, blue-collar situation. Barbara Ehrenreich Both chronic, long-term poverty and downward mobility from the middle class are in the same category of things that America likes not to think about. Barbara Ehrenreich I'm an obsessive. When I get a problem, a question in my mind, it can take me over. Barbara Ehrenreich I haven't seen much socially redeeming about religion. I'm an atheist. I don't here want to get into the Hitchens- or Dawkins-style attack on religion. I was raised on that. It's boring. Barbara Ehrenreich It was a very big principle in my upbringing that you should respect everybody's work. The street sweeper. Everybody. You should never look down on anybody for their work. Barbara Ehrenreich The psychological trauma of losing a job can be as great as the trauma of a divorce. Barbara Ehrenreich In 1993, 89 of the 'Fortune' top 100 companies were administering the Myers-Briggs test to their employees. The philosophy behind personality tests is that they don't want you to be in the wrong kind of job. The tests have been completely exposed as nonsense. Barbara Ehrenreich When I was 13, I had these episodes where I could just see the world without any words attached to it, without any associations. It was a little bit spooky. A lot of people might have even thought it was pathological. I thought it was interesting. Barbara Ehrenreich In 2001, I was being treated for breast cancer, and I was pretty sure I was going to recover. Barbara Ehrenreich I'm interested in what bonds people together. You know, what brings us together in good ways? And there's not a lot known about that. Barbara Ehrenreich We - we spend a lot of time, scholarly time, thinking about love and sex, but very little about the - the kind of joy that can take over a crowd of people or a group of people, in festivity, in ecstatic ritual of some kind, in celebration. Barbara Ehrenreich My parents were atheists, strong atheists. I never got the answer 'God.' Barbara Ehrenreich When I was 17, I had an experience that I later learned could be called a 'mystical experience.' It was almost violent. No faces, voices, nothing like that. It is like the world burst and flamed into life all around me. That is not a great image, but it is as good as I will ever do. Barbara Ehrenreich I became a student of the history of religion. I am fascinated by how religions often center on mystical experience, and in the Old Testament tradition you find flames, the burning bush. Barbara Ehrenreich There's a lot of cruelty going on all the time, and I'm not just talking about inter-human cruelty. I'm talking about whole species becoming extinct, asteroids hitting planets, black holes gobbling up stars. Barbara Ehrenreich Our atheism family tradition is traced to a - I don't know if it was great-great or a great-great-great grandmother who was a poor Irish-American woman in the 1880s in western Montana. Barbara Ehrenreich I first started asking big questions when I was 12, and by big questions, I mean, 'Why are we here? What is this business? We're alive for a few short decades and then poof, we're out of here.' Barbara Ehrenreich I didn't want to be an author; I wanted to be a scientist. Not that I didn't love literature, but I couldn't distinguish it from reading, and reading was already my default activity, almost like breathing. Barbara Ehrenreich I routinely oscillate between exultation and despair. Maybe at the end of the day I feel pretty good about what I've written, but the next morning I see that it's crap. Then I start again - make a new outline, do some more research, try to rethink the whole question. Barbara Ehrenreich