maggie has her angel wings. i'm sure she flew right past God and found her daddy, gary and flag, her old husky buddy. what a joyous reunion it must have been for all 3 of them! i wish i could have been there. i wish i could be there now but i can't.

RIP maggie. you got me through the hardest time in my life and i thank you for that. you were such a good girl, always a comfort to me when i didn't think i could put one foot in front of the other. i will miss you SO much. i hope you remembered to give your daddy my message. i wish i could have made you all better but i couldn't. i will see you again some day, my sweet little lollipop kid. you be nice to all the other dogs! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

She was a beauty.

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together

Linda

trini - the answer is no.

now i need to concentrate on pulling myself together because i know simon and ashley are picking up on my stress. from now on, i'll go outside without them when i need to cry.

thank you again for your lovely sentiments. i know maggie and gary are watching over us, i take some measure of comfort in that. i know it will take time. lots and lots of time.

(((hugs))) to you all!

When the first dog DH and I had together died, I remember saying to him "I don't see how I can possibly ever be happy again". But of course, I did become happy again eventually. Until we lost the next one. And then a bit over a year ago we lost Chinook, the hardest death we'd had to deal with yet. This time I really didn't think I could get over it. In addition to the sadness was second-guessing and guilt feelings thinking I could/should have done something differently...I do still cry for her. I do so understand your feeling of "I will never heal".

But you will. It will take time and there will always be a hole in your heart, but you will eventually be able to think of her with a smile and sadness, but with less of the heartwrenching pain. Of course you cried yesterday, it is still so soon. I think I cried every day for six months when Chinook died.

Have you seen this? I find it very comforting:

Every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them. And every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough, all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are.
by Cheryl Zuccaro

oh, i know i'll heal a little eventually. i also know i will never heal completely. every dog i have ever lost left pawprints on my heart that are permanent.

obviously, maggie can never, ever be replaced. i have always been one to welcome a new life into the fold very soon. it helps me to have something new to focus on and since i'll be dealing with rescue, i will save a dog that might otherwise be doomed. i have contacted the great dane rescue folks i got my ashley girl from last year and they have a dog that looks like a good possibility.

i miss maggie so much, the finality is beginning to sink in, much like it did a couple of days after my husband passed away. i know the next few days will bring unavoidable meltdowns in the middle of walmart, insomnia, profound sadness. at least this time, i know what to expect. *sigh*

Beautiful message about pieces of our hearts.

(((Ninapearl)))

thank you all again for your kind words. (((hugs)))