Just finished round 2 of Chemo. It was less harder hitting than round 1 in general,so far. Things seem to be easier on me than I expected - so far. 1/3rd done ,4 more chemo's to go. Lost about 80 lbs. ,I was about 100 lbs.overweight... A salt and fat free diet sucks! Better than the alternatives I guess... Thanks for the good thoughts and prayers. It means a lot. Garden died so I'm sprouting new stuff,good thing we don't have a winter here. Mostly going to be Manzanos and a few wilds and Annuums I think. Did anyone figure out if the Mag. in Dolomite lime dissolves in the vinegar to make something the plant can still use or? Does it combine with the Ca. to make a compound of some sort or do the Ca. and Mag. disolve to make 2 separate things? It might make a difference since the same receptors in plants can take up either Ca. or Mag. So if they make a compound in whatever ratio of Ca. to Mag. it would be interesting if said ratio matched the average ratio plants use. No more hassle with possible Ca. or Mag. lock out due to overdosing a plant with either or... A possible reason to use Dolomite Lime rather than pure Ca. This post was edited by smokemaster_2007 on Sun, Aug 10, 14 at 13:37

Hello ladies and happy every Holiday I missed. To those of you who do know me, I am back and mentally back on track (I think). To those of you who don't, well I was I am a member, love everyone here. Went away to do some great mission work and had some very tragic things happen. Many hours of therapy later, and actually returning to the Dominican I think I have healed, I am not bitter, sad, or frightened to leave my house any more. I am able to talk about it and I feel that I can share with postive feelings now. But enough of that. Am I to late for April? Please tell me that I can play in April? Max is 4 and we just looked at Co-op preschool. HE is a mama's boy and didn't want to go to big boy school yet. Maryanne~ I have a box for you that I need to send, but um lost your address.. So Merry Christmas when it comes. Ahh. I just don't know what to say or who to say it to because I am scared I will leave someone out. I tried to read as many posts as my brain can handle, but I am sure that I will need some help. Babies and ornaments, tornados and ahhh.. I am not in Kansas anymore. Please feel free to email me with any personals that you'd love to share. I apologize for being gone so long. If there is anything that you want to know email me. If I need to re-join let me know if there is room. Mayanne_ my big sis.. I hope all is well, miss you and thanks for all your support thru this, even though I was a bad lil sis and became an introvert. But guess what? I am back and better. Missed you all Laura.... beans

Hope I can get some! There are quite a few I buy on there. Usually we get the Smart Source or P&G.

Cat - Well, the end result is we are making plans to get married. Yes, things got DRASTICALLY better and we have more promise than ever before! Before we split, he would never make me a priority. I always had to take a backseat to his work, his daughter and whatever else was going on in his life. At first, I understood and happily moved aside to let him take care of all those other things, until he started to use those things against me. He used his work and his daughter to get out of doing things with me. For instance, he didn't want to go to a New Years Eve event with me so he actually ASKED his X if he could have her that night instead of just asking me to stay home with him. He used his child against me. Another time, he didn't want to attend a wedding for some coworkers of mine so he arranged to have an oil change done on his work truck at the same time that we were supposed to leave. So I attended the wedding alone. He also refused to be involved with anything dealing with my DS. For instance, DS was playing in a baseball tournament in a town 2 hours away. Instead of telling me he didn't want to go (which would not have gone over very well with me since I was actively involved with FSD's activities) or sucking it up and going for the sake of DS, he called FSD and convinced her how boring it would be to go and then told me that she didn't want to go so I could go by myself. After dealing with things like this that continued to escalate, I was done. I had no feelings remaining and I was pretty much numb. I told him I didn't love him anymore and he was pretty hurt. After a few days he realized that I wasn't coming back. He started being more open to talking about the things he never wanted to talk about before. He started doing some self-searching and admitting that he was doing some of the things I had said he was doing before. Funny thing was that for the previous 4 years, he hadn't listened to not one of my concerns about our relationship or his health. After we started talking openly, he acted like all of the things I was saying were new information. I told him that I've been talking to him about these things for years. But I think what it was was that he was now open to admitting he had some faults instead of being defensive and believing he was doing nothing to cause our problems. He actually told me that he was worried that one of the reasons he didn't want to marry me was because he thought I might get fat like my mom (who has 2 different kinds of Thyroid diseases). It was pretty hypocritical for someone who hadn't worked out in over 10 years, chewed tobacco and drank a 12-pack of beer every night to suddenly be concerned about MY health when I was going to the gym 3 times a week and dieting. He started working out, eating better and being more concerned about his health instead of eating unhealthy, being lazy and expecting all of us to do the same. After years of trying to help him be healthy by example and not succeeding, he lost 30 lbs. and went down 4 shirt sizes within 3 months. He probably added 10 to 15 years back to his life. It wasn't about vanity. It was about caring about us and himself enough to be healthier and avoid expensive medical problems (that were coming on rapidly). He started being more involved with DS. He started showing up to his games, calling to find out how certain events went, and genuinely caring for a child he had known since the child was 3. He didn't do that for me. I believe, and still do, that he genuinely recognized the damage he was causing DS with his indifference. The biggest change was his involvement with me. He WANTED to attend things with me. He would do whatever he could to be with me and convince me that he was really going to work on things. Before he would give excuses why he couldn't go somewhere with me. It was to the point where a lot of my friends had never even met him. Now, it's expected that we will be together and he's the main attraction when we go somewhere. He's funny and charming. It's really amazing. We would never talk about marriage before. Well, I say "we", but I mean "he". It was like a bad word to him. He was never ready to let the past go and get healing. No way would he go to counseling. He still hasn't gone, but at least he's confronting his problems now and trying to make our relationship stronger. I fell head-over-heels in love with him all over again! I had hope again where I had lost it before! I had all those old stirrings whenever he would hold my hand or I would see his name on my cell phone. And now, a year later, I still do. Sure, we have to fight reverting back to the old ways. But at least now we know that what we have is worth fighting for. It took him having to be without me for him to realize what I meant to him. And all of the times before, he knew I wasn't ready to leave. But this time I was. And that scared him to death.