I'm very sorry for all that's going on in your life, and your anxiety. You have a lot on you, and taking care of yourself needs to be a priority. Please be kind to yourself with special treatments, such as massage and other pampering. I could write a chapter on dealing with complicated grief/anxiety/depression and the drugs that my doctors prescribed, etc. that didn't work for me due to the side effects. I'm very sensitive to drugs and even with something like Excedrin Migraine, can take only half a dose. Wellbutrin caused scary muscle weakness in my thighs and upper arms. I couldn't go up stairs without huffing and puffing (and I usually run up stairs). It made me feel as though I were having a heart attack. Zoloft didn't lift me up at all. Anyway, I now have Trazadone 50mg to take, as needed, if I'm feeling overly anxious in the evening, before bedtime. My doctor would like for me to take it daily, but I can't handle it daily, due to the morning hangover. I take it probably 1-2 times per month and try to calm myself in other ways...including, reaching for sweets, when I shouldn't! Hugs.

Actually, the mantle is too high which makes the mirror seem too high. I'd move the mirror to the left, on the wall behind the table lamp. (not too high. about 5' from floor to CENTER of the mirror is proper height) for the fireplace, I'd do some nice art, and maybe one or two items on the mantle see if you can lower the mantle a bit (or, better yet, get a solid piece of wood that spans the entire width) (of course it would be straight. I tried to straighten out you picture as best I could) or, if you want to do similar style blk/white art, try this^ The other issue that catches my eye are the curtains. you don't have enough of them. While the height is fine, the width is not. I'd do a longer rod that extends at least another foot past the window. See that large bare right side? (I assume the left is similar?) you want the curtains to cover at least another foot of wall. I'd also remove those baby blue because it just doesn't look great next to that mauve sofa. Do something in a sheer soft white or gray or subtle print. like these. see how they go past the edge of the window? also makes the window appear larger. I think something like these simple soft white would be perfect. See? I like much better in the soft white or gray. don't like the blue panels. this white/gray one is nice too and would look better w/your fireplace. (do you have window trim around that window? hard to tell. if not, try some) again, soft white, and notice how they are bunched. with what you have, you need at least 4 more panels (2 more on each side) I like this white a lot better. you could also hang a little frame in that bare spot to the right like they've done here.

Ditto the good wishes. I do hope that someone in the family can be with her continuously! I fully expect that the hospital has someone remotely monitoring the EEG continuously, and I have every confidence the staff will respond promptly if she does have a seizure.

I do much the same as Roy4. I go outside, pull weeds, deadhead, edit. The neighborhood is usually quiet other than wind, insects, birds and I can get lost in what I'm doing. And stop thinking. I should go now. My SIL just called and asked me where else to look for one of mothers hearing aids. It's not a 2000 sq foot apartment, its about 1/4 of that. Good grief, just look - since this is almost a weekly occurrence. Don't always feel the need to call me 2 hours away and try to include me in the search long distance ;0(