Sins of omission..
I'm not sure where to begin but with the holidays coming up and DH & I being displaced from our home and "temporarily" in one of his business associates homes I am at a total loss where we are in our marriage, with regards to what is happening to/with the home SS is living in. Nothing is being done to our fixer-upper and now I owe taxes on it.
DH speaks with SS on the phone and always leaves the room and is very secretive. It's ok, I really don't want to hear the drama anyhow. BUT, after DH co-signed on the car loan a few yrs back and hid it from me, then left the house to SS, recently SS insisted DH get all his things out of the garage there-and he did it!
I feel like major decisions are being made behind my back regarding households and assets. Now with the holidays coming I have no intention of killing myself cooking or even going back to our old house to spend an evening. SS essentailly kicked us out of our own home & DH let it happen!
After I refused to babysit the 3rd day after we moved I have not heard from or seen SS or GS again. So my feelings are this, once my my babysitting was not available on his demands and once my families cabin was not available for him to use and once he got me to move out, well what use am I? I really have no emotional ties to them at all anymore, so it's ok.
Now DH & I get along fine in our little place but I have not moved past the resentment (I have tried). I feel I could if he were honest with me but he is not. So I have moved away from my friends and people I know and my family is all out of state. I'm very isolated here.
I guess what I'm asking is how much non-disclosure in a marriage is ok? I feel our relationship has become so superficial. We cannot plan for the future, like retirement, where we are living etc. Everything is seperate, which is good fininancially because DH is financially devested now and plans on letting the house be foreclosed on if SS doesn't pay the mortgage. I think that is a terrible plan but he is doing it anyway. I get no input here.
So with DH being a decade older than me it puts the burden of retirement solely on me and also if he becomes incompacitated it puts that on me too. Is that right?
When I verbalize my concerns about what if he has a heart attack or becomes ill the answer is always "That's what you have a life insurance policy for." Yea, one that I insisted on and I pay for. DH refused too. I respond a life insurance policy is not a catastrophic financial plan nor a retirement plan. But he just has no repsonse at all and walks away.
So how much non-communication is ok in a marriage. We are not talking about the little white lies, I'm talking keeping your spouse totally in the dark about every major decision, but you still do all the nice things, live a daily life together, buy flowers for, just normal couple things. Just NO sharing of anything of significance.
One thing that DH shared with me yesterday was how upset he was that his Ex Wife was over at "My house!" for Halloween with Ss & Her GS. Now they were divorced for nine years before we met so I told him I didn't understand why this upset him and he said because he is not allowed to know wherer she lives. Ummm, ok. I told him that stopped being his house after he left it to SS and he could have who he wants over there. But it bothers me that after all these years he is still so hung up on crap with his Ex. Come on, she's over it. But during that conversation there were so many references to it being "My House" (meaning his), never ours. We lived there for 8 yr.s together. He had it for 2 yr.s before we married.
I've really backslid the past few months here, haven't been able to find a travel job but still looking. I just don't know where this marriage is going but I feel like I just exhist in it, I'm here but I don't really count and am certainly not in the center of it with DH..Does that make sense?
I guess what I'm getting at is that after almost ten years together I feel like a second class ciutizen, the little wifey who is kept in the dark. Like the stereopical wife who when her husband kicks over doesn't have a clue whats going on financailly. It is not ok with me, but DH refuses and I mean walks away when I try to discuss this stuff with him..Would any woman be comfortable in this situation?
~Cat
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