What a great influence your church has been on the pair of you. (Sarcasm very much intended.) I have to ask, if you were in an on-off relationship with your now husband, why the he[[ did you get in a position to become pregnant? Bad idea. Sorry to be harsh, but your whole approach to relationships seems to be a series of bad ideas: -Get pregnant in an unstable relationship -Marry someone you don't love merely because pregnant -Before marrying get involved with someone else -Get involved with a married man -Know you're doing wrong but not stopping Could this be any more of a train wreck? Stop. Cut off all contact with this other man, it will only end in tears for two marriages. If he's unhappy in his marriage, let _him_ deal with it, sort himself out and be free to be in another relationship honestly. Change churches if you have to to avoid being in contact with this man. Get some counselling. Sort out _your_ feelings without the confusion of your infatuation with this other man. Consider carefully and decide if you want to continue with your marriage or not. Only you can decide if security is enough (sounds ATM like it isn't) but having decided, you need to follow through one way or the other. Either fully commit to your husband or divorce, don't sit on the fence. It's not fair to anyone concerned and is a terrible example for your children.

So you were in love with this guy when you married husband number two? I don't understand how people can do that. I understand he may not have been attainable at that point, but how could you commit to someone else if you really loved him and how could he commit to and marry someone else if he really loved you. What's real is real, what is fantasy is fantasy. Fact is, he loved his first and second wives enough to marry them... not so about you. And, he obviously didn't care enough to wait arround for you. He goes to bed with his wife every night, not you. If you're married, quit communicating with men you are attracted to.. it's only going to cause heartache.

Thanks! AnnT's recipe is like the one I make, but with an extra half teaspoon of vanilla - close enough! So 9x13 it is, but how do you think that PB filling and frosting will freeze? I wanted to get all the baking done this weekend (have already made 3 crumb cakes), because I need to make 3 spinach/feta "quiches", 3 ratatouille/ziti dishes & 1 baked spaghetti dish on Wednesday/Thursday!

Haha I’ll do more reading on it to see if it’s true. I would love to just squish those bastards instead of having to attempt to drown them in soapy water, makes me feel like a monster lol ugh the summer was AWFUL for those beetles and literally no amount/type of insecticide worked, I’m almost convinced it made them into immortal mutants instead https://amherstgardenclub.files.wordpress.com/2014/03/controlling-japanese-beetles.pdf https://mynortherngarden.com/2012/07/27/two-things-you-did-not-know-about-japanese-beetles/