Anyhow, a couple years ago I needed to rebuild my koi pond because it had a bad leak. My daughter and I carried big rocks up a big hill, to the car, and out of the car for the sides of the pond. Little did I know that I was absolutely tearing my joints apart, and causing all kinds of physical problems for myself. Plus I was going through Menopause, along with major depression.(AS a child I was abused, and witnessed my mother being murdered by my father)). It's difficult to say if the depression was due to my child hood, genetic,or both. Soon after the pond incident my depression kicked in so bad, I really wanted to die, the anxiety was unbearable, and it was amazing the physical symptoms I started to experience. At night I would experience a burning rushing through my body, it felt like fire. NOT a hot flash. I had those too. I wish I could make this story shorter. After going to a regular MD, he said I had ADD, "restless leg", and wanted to put me on 6 different meds. I hate pills. Still, I realize they do have a place and are sometimes necessary, and we should be grateful to medical science that we have them.

So I went on three different pills. My anxiety got worse, and although I thought the depression lifted it wasn't so. Never did believe I had "restless leg", didn't take pills for it. Then I started with this banging in my head,- constantly. Thank goodness, I could only hear it when it was very quiet. So I weaned myself off the pills, had all the same problem's lots of pain in all my joints, the burning at night kept me awake, no sleep, anxiety on a level you wouldn't believe, and this banging in my head. It was time for the black pill. You know, the pill that ends ALL your troubles.
Before this all started, I been watching my diet,mostly low fat, LOTS of supplements, walking every day, relaxation tapes, and drinking lots of water. Nothing helped. This is a long story, I apologise, but I need to take care of some things. To be continued...