Our Son Jeff Passed Away

17 years ago

OUR SON JEFF PASSED AWAY LAST NIGHT; HE WAS ONLY 40 YEARS OLD.

HE LOVED US ALL AS WE DID HIM AND NOW THE WORLD SEEMS SO COLD

THE SUN CAME UP THIS MORNING TO START ANOTHER DAY

IT DOES NOT LIGHT THIS AWFUL DARKNESS TO HELP US FIND OUR WAY.

FAMILY AND FRIENDS GATHERED AROUND US TO SHARE LOVE AND ALL DID THEIR PART

BUT ALL WE CAN FEEL RIGHT NOW IS THE ICE COLD DAGGER PIERCING THROUGH OUR HEART

THEY TELL US JEFF WOULD WANT US TO GO ON BUT DO THEY REALLY KNOW

HOW WE WILL EVER GO ON WHILE WE ARE MISSING HIM SO

HE LOVED US ALL WITH ALL OF HIS HEART AND NOW THAT HEART IS STILL

WE GO ON EVERY DAY LOVING AND MISSING HIM AND I KNOW WE ALWAYS WILL

BUT NOW OUR LIVES ARE DESPERATE OUR FUTURE IS SO UNSURE

FOR THIS AWFUL EMPTINESS THERE DOES NOT SEEM BE A CURE

WE PRAY TO GOD FOR STRENGTH EACH DAY, BUT GOD SEEMS FAR AWAY

I KNOW THIS IS NOT TRUE AND HE HOLDS US IN HIS HAND

BUT IT IS SO HARD FOR US TO SEE HOW THIS COULD BE HIS PLAN

EVERYONE TELLS US HE IS IN A BETTER PLACE ALTHOUGH THEY HAVE NEVER BEEN

AND THAT WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN ALTHOUGH WE DO NOT KNOW WHEN

I KNOW WE WILL GO ON FROM HERE BUT I DO NOT KNOW HOW

WITHOUT HIS SMILE HIS LAUGH AND HUGS IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE NOW

IN THE DARKNESS WE WALK EACH DAY WITH THE COLD WINDS OF DESPAIR THAT BLOW

STRANGERS WHO SURROUND US HAVE KNOW WAY TO KNOW

THEY DO NOT KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO START ANOTHER DAY

THEY DO NOT KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO CLAW AND FIND A WAY

TO FIND A WAY TO BREATHE, TO EAT, TO GO ON ANOTHER DAY

TO FIND A REASON TO LIVE JUST ANOTHER MINUTE, HOUR, OR DAY

WE KNOW GOD HAS PROMISES AND ON THOSE WE CAN DEPEND

ITS HARD THOUGH WHEN ONE SO LOVED IS TAKEN IN THE END

IT HAS BEEN FIVE WEEKS NOW SINCE WE GOT THAT AWFUL CALL

AND IT MUST ONLY BE THROUGH GODÂS STRENGTH WE HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR AT ALL

IT SEEMS LIKE AN ETERNITY BUT YET ONLY YESTERDAY

WHEN WE SAID GOODBYE FOR NOW AND JEFF WENT ON HIS WAY

HE WENT TO BE WITH HIS MEME AND HIS FAMILY IN A PLACE WE ARE TOLD IS SO GRAND

BUT WHAT WE WOULD NOT GIVE FOR ONE MORE HUG, LAUGH, OR TOUCH OF HIS HAND

SO JEFF PLEASE KNOW WE MISS YOU AND WE ARE TRYING AS BEST WE CAN

TO CARRY ON THIS LIFE ON EARTH AND UNDERSTAND GODÂS PLAN

WE WILL ALL TAKE CARE OF EACH OTHER UNTIL WE SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE

BUT KNOW WE LOVE YOU MISS YOU AND THAT WE WILL NEVER HIDE

I AM SORRY WE ARE ANGRY BUT PLEASE KNOW IT IS NOT AT YOU

IT ONLY BECAUSE WE ARE HUMAN AND WE DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO

PLEASE TELL GOD TO BE PATIENT AS WE STRUGGLE TO FIND OUR WAY

WE ARE SO VERY SELFISH AND WISH WE HAD ONE MORE DAY

I KNOW YOU WANT US TO BE ABLE TO SMILE AGAIN AS YOU DID WHEN MEME PASSED

YOU WERE THE KEEPER OF OUR HEARTS AND NEVER WANTED US SAD

YOU COULD COME UP WITH A JOKE, OR A MEMORY OR MOVIE TO MAKE US FEEL SO GLAD

SO GLAD TO BE AROUND IF ONLY FOR NIGHT

WHEN YOU ACCOMPLISHED THAT FOR US YOUR WORLD SEEMED VERY RIGHT

I WILL CLOSE THIS NOW MY SPECIAL SON THE OLDEST OF OUR THREE

PLEASE KNOW THAT WE LOOK FORWARD WHEN TOGETHER AGAIN WE WILL BE.

WHILE LIFE ON EARTH IS SO VERY SAD WITHOUT YOU

YOU COMPLETED OUR LIVES IN MANY WAYS SOME YOU NEVER KNEW

JUST KNOWING YOU WERE THERE WAS ALL MOM NEEDED TO MAKE IT THROUGH

WE LOVE YOU SON AND MISS YOU NOW PLEASE LOOK IN ON US WHEN YOU CAN.

WE LOVE YOU JEFF OUR WONDERFUL SON, AND VERY SPECIAL YOU NG MAN

10/30/06

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jlj48
17 years ago
last modified: 9 years ago
I am so sorry for your loss and I see how very much you have been hurting. Your poem is a wonderful expression of all of your pain. It shows how very deep your pain, yet your love as well has been. That's the thing. The more we love, the deeper the pain is with our loss. But it's better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all don't you think? It sounds like you have a wonderful family and Jeff was such a good son. And what loving parents you are too. Hugs to you during this time. Thank you for sharing.
Joanie
socks
17 years ago
last modified: 9 years ago
What a devastating loss. I'm so sorry. The poem is a wonderful tribute to Jeff. My heart aches for you and your family.
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You may want to meet my daughter who knows your son now.
Bless you.
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sudiepav
17 years ago
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