Hello Taunia, Do hope the summer is finding you doing some fun things. I can't imagine what you are going through, so I'll not say "I know"because I don't. I have a couple Bible verses which have helped me in the lose of my parents and 3 brothers. Proverbs 20:22 Since the Lord is directing our steps, why try to understand what happens along the way...........Proverbs 25:2 It is God's priviledge to conceal things. I think my favorite is :
"Do not let these things which may not in the present be understood weary your soul, but know that sometime, someday, somewhere, you too will understand. from Edgar Cayce. Hope you understand, I'm only sending you some verses, I'm not attempting to "preach". We each need our own time to grieve. None of us ever grieve in the same time frame. So, be good to yourself! Remember, we have tears to help wash away the pains of living.