Life events that changed you as a person?
In 1999 DH and I had been married for 21 years. Though financially we had some rough years in the beginning, I had an easy going personality, not a worry in the world. Yes, I was an emotional person, but if upset would be over it in no time at all. In a 2 week period that all changed. DH lost his job of 14 years, my oldest son was arrested and my 16 y/o son and his 15 y/o gf told me they were pregnant. This began my slip into a world full of insecurities and helplessness.
DH went through a couple of years with several jobs before he got the job he now works at. My son was found guilty and put on probation. Several years later he went through a year of crack addiction. My other son had a beautiful little boy but his relationship with the mother only lasted for 2 years and now he has another child by another girl. They have been together 6 years now and I guess are happy.
2004 was spent keeping my dad comfortable until his death that July. I have always been a daddy's girl and his illness and death devastated me. Even now I can't believe he is gone from my physical life and can't provide much needed advice or even just a hug. He was the light of my life, my sounding board, the fixer of all broken things and a 1st class dog/babysitter.
2008 has been a tough year.... filing disciplinary papers against DD, forcing counseling and medical. The fighting and arguing, the emotional drama and fear for her future and wellbeing. Cops, probation officers and social service workers. Psychiatrist and therapist. And only a
But through it all, I have become a tougher person. Dealt with issues that I thought I would never be able to handle. I still maintain a soft heart but act more with my head now. Truly, I believe there are some depression issues that I need to deal with but right now I need to put DD first. If I could get her on the right track I think I would be an awesome person... soft-hearted but tough as nails!
Yeah, that's me... tough as nails... almost! :)