I chickened out.
I went down today, having made up my mind to buy the soapstone, and while the man was recalculating, I started getting cold feet and didn't buy it! Had this horrible feeling that I was making a big mistake.
I went out to look at the soapstone, and it is a little scratched up on the bottom edge (will they refinish it?) and it feels a little rough, not silky smooth like my bathroom counter. I tried on a edge and I could barely scratch it with my key. I just can't picture it polished up and in my kitchen and I almost had a panic attack. You just can't return it or paint over it if it doesn't look good can you?
Maybe some of you very kind and talented people can help me figure out what to do with this kitchen. So here it is as is.