Very sad yesterday and today....had to make "the" decision for our 17 year old cat, Beauregard de Katt, over the week-end. Had him since he was a 5 week old abandoned kitten covered with fleas. We are at peace with the final decision as he was nearly blind, kept losing weight despite a healthy appetite and had recently become incontinent; still, it was so-o-o-o hard to make that last trip to the vet, knowing we would come home without him. For many years his "post" had been a barstool in the kitchen where he would perch and watch all the comings and goings, food prep, etc. and occassionally throw in his own comment. He was really attached to DH and spent nearly every evening laying on DH's chest, reaching up to repeatedly pat Gary's beard when it was time to pet the kitty. The dogs and our other cats seem a bit lost without him, too, even though in recent weeks several of them had frequent, very loud "disagreements" with him.
Sigh....pets are such a wonderous blessing, teaching us so many things... I know time will heal the hole in our hearts and lives, but right now it seems almost impossible for things to ever be "right" again.