It is hard to say goodbye
I had to I thought I was ready to put down my best friend last week. I knew it was time and scheduled the appointment for Friday and then Wednesday night she just crashed so we did it Thursday morning as she was still trying to keep up following every move I made to be with me. It was so hard but we were ready. We did bury her at the back of our property and I will make it nice in the spring. Funny thing was during the day, I swear I heard her whimper to come in. later in the day, I thought I heard her bark so I just opened the door and gave a "come on in Sheba" and went up to bed and it was like I heard her sigh like she always does at bedtime and that's it. No more phantom sounds. I feel so relieved for her. It's hard, so hard but there is so much comfort in knowing she lived long and well. We are also jumping on another dog. We love our dogs and dogs need homes but I still feel guilty.