how does a person prepare for this?
we are reaching the end of this long road. simon, my corgi boy, is almost completely down in the back end now, degenerative myelopathy. even though i wrap his feet whenever we go outside, he is developing more sores from dragging them. for the past few weeks, he has been panting a lot. this disease eventually affects the muscles that make his diaphragm work and i suspect that is beginning to happen.
he seems sad much of the time. his appetite isn't what it used to be. he won't use the cart. he just hangs back at the house most of the time and watches me and pea and ashley, his dane sisters, do chores. he seems confused about why his little body doesn't work any more. i don't see him interacting as much with ashley as he used to. he always gave her a bath, washed her face with his tongue every morning and every evening. i haven't seen him do this but once or twice lately.
i was hoping to be able to get past x-mas but i don't think i can. his dignity is becoming compromised. i talked to my vet this morning, he said he would come out to the house when i need him. it will probably be in the next 2 or 3 weeks.
my heart just aches. simon is my last living connection to to my late husband. he is my heart dog. of all the dogs i have loved and lost, simon is the one who will leave the biggest empty place.
how will i ever get past this one? next to losing gary, this is the hardest thing i have ever had to do.