no intimacy in marriage
I've come to the heartbreaking conclusion that I have to leave my husband. I'm 45 years old my husband is 50. We've been together for 23+ years. I've always had a much higher libido than my husband. In the last 5 years not only has the sex disappeared but intimacy all together is gone. My self esteem is completely gone, getting rejected on almost a daily basis will do that. I'm so lonely, I'm more lonely laying in that bed next to him every night than when I'm actually alone. When the kids were little he'd use the excuse of not wanting to have sex because the kids could walk in, now there's only one left at home and he's 17 and not home all that much. Now he uses the excuse that he's 50 and sex isn't a priority. Yesterday seems to be the last straw for me, he actually suggested that I go to the doctor to see if they could give me something to make it so that I wouldn't want to have sex anymore. He refuses to talk about it, he refuses to even think the problem could be with him. He's not having sex elsewhere is not watching porn. I'm a 45 yo female with no job skills really, I've devoted myself to my family and the idea of starting over scares me to death and the saddest part is is that I actually love this man but not even touching or kissing I can't do this anymore it's exhausting.