Kitchen, Seasonal, Everday Stress is getting to me!
How about you? How are others dealing with all the stress of the kitchen remodel with the seasonal stress of the holidays, whatever you celebrate? We have finished the kitchen and now comes the stress of putting it all back together. I know I am stressing over nothing, but because it looks so nice I want everything perfect. That is paralyzing.
And I was up late last night wrapping presents I just bought to send back to the Midwest and East Coast. I am usually a little more on top of things and get them done sooner but again blame it on the kitchen. And was last minute online ordering things for DH and DS because they finally told me what they wanted and hope it gets here on time.
I am so not into Christmas this year. Too burned out from the kitchen remodel and all the problems and hassles. We didn't put up a Christmas tree this year for the first time but got a small 3-foot lighted one with ornaments already attached to put on the coffee table. And I am not decorating the house like I usually do. I have too much other work to do.
And everyday stress. I am up at 2:30AM typing this because my dog got sick in bed with me. (The full story is on the Pet Forum) So had to change the sheets and wash everything. She can't help it; I think it is all the medicine she is on. It has been a very stressful couple of weeks with every time I take her to the vet they find something new wrong with her.
And talk about stress! I have spent more in the last 2 weeks on her then I ever did on my last two dogs in vet bills. And that is added stress between DH and me. Everyone has different opinions on how much you should spend on a pet and how far you should go (that would be the subject of another post). But add these bills on top of kitchen remodel bills and Christmas bills. Well, you get the picture.
At least my DH didn't have to put up with her throwing up on him. Heres a little secret - because of a very long commute, over 2 hours each way, he has a place by work during the week and comes home weekends. He just started doing that a little over 2 years ago when the commute got so bad and also at 55 his knees and back couldnÂt take it anymore. But that adds its own stress, if anyone who has been in this situation knows.
Then there is the 24/7 stress of my 22-year-old son. He has Autism, OCD and several physical problems. It is something I am use to dealing with for the most part but when you start piling up the stress of everything else, I begin to crack. Then I am not the best I could be. And for a year he has been going in for tests to find out what is wrong with him lately. He has lost 70 lbs for no reason that they can figure out. He is eating normally and just sits in his room so not due to physical exercise. They have done everything in the book but can't find out what is wrong. Where is DR. House when you need him?
And I just turned 55 (mid-life crisis?) and have been looking over my life a lot lately. This is isnÂt where I expected to be. I got a Masters degree at 28 and thought I would be a hotshot career woman by now, maybe thinking of an early retirement at this age. I gave up my career to take care of my son. No regrets really, but just wonder about the path not taken.
Sorry for the long post. I guess this is what happens when you are wide-awake at 2:30AM. In regards to all of the stress mentioned above, I always think of what my mom use to say, "This too shall pass." I know by this age that these things will somehow resolve themselves one way or another. It is just H**L when you are going through them.
Thanks for listening.