Newbie Intro, Prayer Request & Advice..long post
I have lurked on Gardenweb for so long, I feel like I know many of you already. I created a username tonight for selfish reasons but believe I found this board years ago for a reason. Your friendships and support are an inspiration but I never felt like I could contribute enough to make a difference.
I have recently had some personal issues and would love any input you may have.
I am 37 years old, married for over 12 years, trying for my first child. Long story short, I planned my whole life so far (engagement, wedding, first house purchase, sold first house to buy bigger home to raise family, etc.). As of December DH and I actively began trying to conceive our first baby now that our mortgage is able to be paid under 1 salary and everything else seemed ideal as it could be. I had some minor female issues with monthly cycle and double periods so I actively got in touch with my OB/GYN to find the problem. I learned to calculate my ovulation date, etc. but still to no positive pregnancy test. I had all kinds of different ultrasounds that showed there could be minor complications but nothing that couldn't be managed.
I was diagnosed with a polyp and recommended to have a D&C and a hydroscopy (?) under anesthesia. I was petrified as I have never been put under but for my DH and future conception, I was brave and reached for the stars. The follow up was scheduled for 1 week later. My DH and I showed up for what we thought would be normal test results and to keep trying, which turned out to be the biggest nightmare of our life. The pathology report showed ENDOMETRIAL CANCER. Recommended cure is hysterectomy asap. My dream of motherhood flashed and burned before my very eyes. My doctor has only had 2 cases in more than 30 years experience of this diagnosis in my age group; me and one other patient. To say I am devestated is an understatement. I have let down my husband, my family, my inlaws, my world. To not conceive and birth a child is like a death in my heart.
I have not yet met with the oncologist to determine the stage of cancer, the type of hysterectomy he recommends, if my eggs can be harvested for a miracle (no one in our family would ever volunteer to surrogate I don't think), or any other of the 100s of questions in my heart and mind can be answered. I am so overwhelmed at the moment but mustered up some courage for stranger help. It's far easier than reaching out to a family and friend support system yet.
Any advice for me, prayers of any faith, and questions for my doctors are most appreciated. I plan on going to Dana Farber Cancer Institute in Boston for a 2nd opinion assuming my insurance will cover a 2nd opinion I hope. I'm not close but I have been told they are the best.
I believe in the power of prayer and the thought of menopause at 37 makes me literally nauseous, nevermind the end of a family dream.
Thank you so much if you read this far and God bless.