What is wrong with me? I am the type of person who can conquer just about anything, and I have in my thirty nine years been through a lot. I am not a drinker or a drug user and could never have been due to the fact that I like to remain in control of my life. But the catch is I have this addiction to the one drug that consumes me and that is nicotine.My life is so busy and I don't have much time to relax so I have taken the almighty cigarette as my friend and companion for the past 20 years.
I try not to think of this habit as my one last relaxation but never the less, every time I try to quit, I get resentful that I have to lose the only thing that makes me relax.
No matter what the health authorities say and how much I get shunned by all the non-smokers I still feel I have the right to have a puff.
How do I get by it and how do I retrain myself to think otherwise?
Desperately wanting to kick the habit. I hate how this habit consumes me.