I feel worse everyday
I feel like my entire life is falling apart since Bryce died. I'm depressed with Christmas coming so I think I want to run away by myself until it's over. My career is falling apart. I'm not emotionally stable enough to be there. How can I help patients when I can't hold myself together?? I just feel like I'm falling and can't pick myself up. The longer I am without my beautiful son the worse I feel. I just lay on his bed every night and cry. I can barely get myself out of bed every morning. I had the worst nightmare the other night with him in it. I was so happy to see him but then something happened where he needed me more then ever but I couldn't reach him to save him. I don't know but maybe I'm feeling guilty because I wasn't there for him when he really needed me. I don't know, my life is just a mess.