I posted my story on Oct. 26th.
With losing my mother at 6 years old and then losing my father and uncle so suddenly 10 months ago, I'm so afraid of who is next.
I have the most wonderful husband. I love him more than any words could possibly describe. We make each other laugh every day. Every moment I look at him, I just smile and appreciate him and feel so grateful to have him in my life. He has been amazing the last 10 months, sacrificing many of his shirts to my tears.
I truly feel we have the next 70+ years together, but after what I've been through, how can I not think off losing him? I couldn't bear it.
I've told my therapist all of this and I know I shouldn't focus on it, but I just wanted to make sure that I wasn't alone in having these thoughts.