It Get's Easier With Time But I Still Miss My Mom
My grief has definitely eased in the year and a half since my mom died. I rarely cry anymore...at least much less than I used to but I have an empty feeling that I fear will never go away. It's like an ache in my heart. Almost like it's broken and can never be fixed I've been on Effexor for 6 months now and it's helped with my depression and anxiety so I know that's not what's causing me to feel so empty inside. It's the fact that my mother is gone and I'll never see her again. I try not to think about it as much but sometimes it comes at me full force. My 30th birthday is on October 31st. That's the age my mother was when I was born. It's so hard for me to think that just 30 years ago she was like me. Young and carefree. Did she think she'd be dead at the age of 57? I highly doubt it.
I'm sorry if I seem to be rambling on. I just need to vent and I thank God that I have groups like this to do so.