Breakdown after Father passed - Family Issues
I am loosing it. Feel like I am scared to go outside. My father passed away in April - both my mom and dad had terminal illnesses and I have been there for both as a caretaker. Siblings are acting strange - I seem to be angry with the one person I have always been close to and all the others who were never close came together. Strange as I always thought I would be so much more different than I am.
I seem to be ok one day and the next scared to death. I have found myself behaving spastically. I talk real fast jumping from one topic to another then at times I am frozen and can't say anything. One day I am in a great mood and goofy then the next - everything bothers me and I do and say idiotic things. Then I am embarrassed to show my face for a few days. Crazy anxious. I can't focus. I forget things all the time and feel like I am going crazy. Anyone out there dealing with these emotions?