daddy where are you?
My father passed away suddenly Monday, October 5th, 2009. I am so angry, guilty, and sad among other feelings that i cannot hardly see straight. My heart and stomach just drop through my butt repeatedly throughout the day. I dont have the energy to describe to just you how FAR from supportive my mother(whom has been divorced from my father for 20 years) and my fiance have been. My friends are supportive, my brother and my step-mother have been there in the sense that we are all going through something horrible, but I dont know if any of us have the energy to really pretend like any one of us are well enough to tell the other things are ok. i feel like the only thing i can do is try to eat, try to occupy myself...but i cant lie, i feel helpless. i know you never get over it, but i hear that you learn to accept it some, that you move on. well...i dont know if i can beleive that. i want this nightmare to be over...i want my daddy to come home.