Recent death of my husband
I lost my husband on August 6, 2011. We would have celebrated our 40th wedding anniversary on October 16, 2011. I am trying to cope the best I can, but the pain is always there. I have wonderful friends and family to support me, I've been seeing a therapist, and I'm attending a bereavement support group. I journal a lot too. The hardest things for me are being alone, being in crowds, and sleeping. I can't believe that he will never walk in the door again, never climb in bed with me, never see our grandchildren grow up, never, never, never get to do all the things we dreamed about when we retired. He was only 58 and I'm 56. It bothers me that I don't want to spend time with my grandkids very much. Seeing them for an hour or two is okay, but every time I begin to feel joyful, I think I shut down. God will this ever feel better.