I miss her so much

monkeyfaceSeptember 24, 2009

My mom passed away February 23rd of this year. She died quickly of small cell lung cancer three weeks after she was diagnosed. My sister and I cared for her at home and she died in my arms. I miss her so much and I can't sleep at night. I long to see her again, hug her, smell her, hear her. I lost my dad when I was 10 and have dreaded the loss of my mom ever since. I am only 29 and have no parents left. I went to a support group and everyone was so much older I just couldn't connect. She'll never see me get married, have kids, she would have been such a wonderful grandmother. My heart is aching.

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See if you can find another support group. Check the YMCA, local hospital staff, church groups etc. It may be too soon, but later you could volunteer at hospitals or nursing homes. Some of the people could need you as much as you could share your love and stories with them.

    Bookmark   September 25, 2009 at 4:35PM
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Hey there. I cannot imagine how hard it must be for you...but I do know that it hurts so much...I lost my mother back in February 16...a week after my birthday and I was at school at the time so I couldn't even talk to her or anything...She passed because of a fall and it happened so sudden that I didn't know what to do...I thought there must have been a reason for this tragedy and I began to question if God really exists...somehow I came to realize that He actually does exist and I've become a full time Christian since then. Believe it or not, I've been noticing why certain things happen in my life and I've found peace in my heart. I hope you seek God as well...I had to google and ask my friends to help me realize. It's a miracle that I started believing and every part of my life has improved significantly. If anything, try talking to your Christian friends and see what they can do for you...One thing for sure: our mothers love us so much that they don't want to see us in tears! You know it...our mothers are up there somewhere watching over us !

    Bookmark   September 26, 2009 at 1:27AM
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I'm so sorry you are hurting so much, I so wish you had more time with your mom. Does she have siblings or a best friend that you can share time with? I lost my mom July 31 and the pain is still so raw, but I was so very lucky, she lived a long life. I'm so sorry that you did not have that.

    Bookmark   September 26, 2009 at 8:36AM
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Thank you for your kind words and advice. It is helpful to connect with other people out there who may know what I'm going through.

    Bookmark   September 28, 2009 at 6:19PM
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