5 years later still sucks
my dad died five years ago. i find myself still staying up late, maybe having too much to drink, thinking about it. To this day i can't believe he's gone. i've turned my life upside down, moved out of state away from my family, i don't know what else to do. i guess it will never go away. if i die tomorrow, it won't bother me because i'll get to see him. i told my wife that one night, in the heat of the moment after a very vivid dream. that's messed up, but true. i would give anything to see him again, including my own life. If i didn't have a wife and children, i would have already done it. please tell me someone else has these feelings for so many years after the fact.