What Keeps Me Going.. I Hope I Can Help You All
I know grief well. I lost my precious 19 year old daughter, Christin, my mom who was my best friend, my only niece whom I love dearly, and now I'm losing my dad to cancer. Nothing of the past is the same. Grief is a daily emotion. I think of each one of them every single day and miss all of our good times together.
I recently co-authored a novel, CHRISTIN, in which events of my daughter's life from 9th grade until her death and after, are depicted. In the book, I mention how I have survived this tradgedy and I hope to help others with my thoughts and feelings. Many have told me that this one statement has helped them.
I pretend that my loved ones are on a very wonderful vacation. There are no worries and no pain there. Everything is beautiful and perfect. I know that they are having a great time and are happier than ever before. I plan to go meet them on this vacation when it is my time to go. Until then, I have to be confident that they are happy and having fun where they are.
Without this faith, eleven years after my daughter's tragic death, I would still be in the lowest pits of grief.
I know that those of my loved ones who have gone before me love me as much as I love them and they do not want me unhappy anymore than I would wish that on them. We have to go on, try our best to enjoy life, and enjoy and appreciate the loved ones who are still here. We never know when they could leave us,also.
I do miss the past very much. Nothing is the same, but in life, nothing can be expected to stay the same. It is sad sometimes, but I pick myself up and try to move on knowing that this life is only temporary for all of us. We are born to die. We just need to try our best and live the best that we can while we are here.
I know that some of your grief is very fresh and intense, but I hope that I can help you all.