Am I allowed to grieve? long
I am grieving my SIL, father,and Brother.
My question is this. My dear sweet mother, whom I cared for, for several years is living in a nursing home. The drs made us (my brother and I) put her there because she had alzheimers and was getting very hard to manage at home. I miss her so much.
Since then I have had several strokes and am not able to take care of her, or drive and go see her everyday like I used to. This is breaking my heart.
My brother lives out of state and does get up here to see her at least twice a week.
He doesn't take me often because of the long walk and she seems to get upset with me. Sometimes I am her mother, at other times, her sister. I went last week to see her and she asked where my father was. I told her he was at home. I hated to lie to her , but she would have gotten really upset and hard to handle.
I grieve for her almost as if she is gone. Is this wrong? I feel so bad about this.
Sorry to lay all this on you fine people, but I need some feedback.