2 Years This Saturday
I can't believe it'll be 2 years this Saturday, May 12th, since my mother passed away. It still seems so unreal to me. Some days I almost expect a phone call from her and then suddenly I'll remember that there will be no more phone calls. No more laughing till our sides hurt. No more of our wonderful conversations. No more shopping and lunch dates. No more anything. It crushes me. I still wish I could rewind 2 years and take back the fact that we weren't speaking when she died. I've somewhat come to terms with that and I know know she knew I loved her and that she loved me dearly as well but oh how I wish I could have told her that before she passed. I hope someday to meet her again and be able to tell her just that. Until then, I will continue to whisper that everynight before I close my eyes, like I've done religiously for the last two years, in hopes that somehow, wherever she may be, she hears me.