i am confused, angry and sad

romoneaMarch 15, 2009

i lost my boyfren jus 2 weeks and 3days now, they say its his fault his car collied witha truck killing him and the passanger on the spot they say. i think of him all day everyday, i feel mad at him at god even at frens, i am mad people who even suggest it was his fault, i saw him the day b4 he died wen i am happy i feel sad in those moments i spend each waking n sleeping moment wondering about his last moment. thinking wat i could for him 2 be alive i wonder is he cold hunger stupid stuff, i am trying but i am lost. i smell his shirt each morning kiss his picture call his fone jus 2 hear his voice mail. i been keeping a journal but i am ver confused i cant be at my house it remind of him. i wonder if in some way it was my fault i showed him pictures of a lady that was hit by a truck the day b4 he crashed i have sooo much emotions please help me

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sylviatexas1

I'm so sorry.

Every single thing that's tormenting you is normal.

You're not going crazy, you're not losing it.

Just let yourself grieve as intensely as you want;
an old friend told me that, when she lost someone very close to her one summer, she went into the backyard late one night & climbed onto the trampoline & "sat there under the moon cryin' & blubberin' & snottin'", & it seemed to purge some of the most intense pain.

Give yourself time, take some brisk walks or work in the garden or do some exercise (get some oxygen into your blood), & remember to remember the *good* stuff.

I wish you well.

    Bookmark   March 16, 2009 at 2:54PM
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mariend

Contact some of the churches, medical staff, funeral home YMCA etc for some grief support groups. You cannot do this alone as you are holding too much in. Even look in your local paper or phone book for help. It will take time but with some help you will survive. I am sorry for your loss.

    Bookmark   April 2, 2009 at 8:43PM
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bindiebear

What you are feeling is perfectly normal, the sadness, the anger, the regreat ectra. But you are not alone in this grieving process that you are going through. I myself lost my father almost 2 weeks ago and I am feel the sadness, the anger, and pain. I'm guessing that many people around you are telling you as they are telling me keep your chin up and everything will be okay. Yes its the kind words of well wishers, however it still hurts and it is hard. I personally am just trying to take one day at a time and also am planning to get therapy to help with my grief. But I wish you all the best as you deal with the loss of a loved one.

    Bookmark   April 5, 2009 at 1:14AM
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