Numb and dead inside
My mother died two weeks ago. She was my best friend and I loved her very much. She was sick with cancer for two years.
While she was dying, I could not imagine life without her and I did not go through a day without crying. I lost about 30 pounds and basically stopped taking care of myself.
Now, I am dead inside. I am numb. I am not grieving like I thought I would. I am sleepwalking through my life. I don't cry. I don't feel. I am dead inside.