i made it through the year
well yesterday was the first anniv. of us losing Al. i really didn't think that i would make it at times, it has been so hard, and even thought he was bed ridden for 10 years i miss him every second. my car was in the shop on friday morning and i was telling the cab driver that i have been a widow for a whole year and went on to tell him how everyone loved my Al, and a little about him. he told me sincerely how lucky i was and that when his time came that people would speak about him the way i did. my (or is it still our) son and i went and left him yellow roses, something he always brought home for me. our daughter won't come to the cemetery with me, she say that she can see his grave site from the street on the way to the university. i think that Al would be proud of us, learning to do different things like painting, plumbing, putting in new lamin. flooring. but all in all life still sucks big time.
ps it's really warm here - about 18 degrees! way up north!