Are you in love with your house?
Were you "in love" with your house before you built? Or did you just like it?
I'm beginning to feel like a crazy person. See, I have this notion that I should be absolutely in love with the house I want to build. Maybe I'm expecting too much. Maybe I'm a perfectionist with a fear-of-failure complex. I don't know.
What I do know is that I'm not in love with my current design. I like it. It's okay. I could live with it, because just about anything is better than what we're living in now. But I don't love it.
We're ready to apply for the approvals, and suddenly I've put on the brakes. I'm looking at other house plans, wanting to rearrange everything or completely start over. Maybe even with a different builder and architect. Maybe a whole new concept.
I've delayed everything for the past 2 weeks, not answering calls from the engineer or architect, because I'm afraid it's not right for us. We've been working on this plan for over a year. If I let myself go and explore endless options, I could carry on like this for at least another year or two. Shouldn't I bite the bullet and Just Do It?
Is this normal? Am I crazy? If I'm not in love, should I be? Were you? What's wrong with me?