Hi, I used to post here alot at one time. My mom passed away in Feb of this year. I don't think I'll ever get over it. Mother's Day was really hard for me as was my birthday last week.
I'll miss her forever. Rest in peace dear mom...
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.
I'm sorry for your loss. Of course you'll miss her forever, but the raw emotion you're feeling now does temper with time and the memories get sweeter and sweeter.
My heart goes out to you. After being a caregiver, it's very difficult to move on. I have been caregiver for my mom and little brother who is handicapped. My dh says he is very worried about what I will do when my mom passes. While it will be a blessing for her as she prays for death, there is loss in so many ways.
I pray that you can move on, keep your wonderful memories and move more and more toward celebrating her life instead of grieving over her death.
Easy to say, I know but maybe doing things that she enjoyed, seeing things she liked etc will help you.
I am so sorry.
I am so sorry for your mom's death, but try to be kind to you. You now have to find a new normal and after caregiving it is hard. Take your time to mourn but keep moving forward.